WOW

I don't even know where to begin. We had an ultrasound yesterday and there is some concerns with the baby. They are calling it possible asymetric IUGR. I've read all I can about it and it doesn't seem too serious but it still is scaring me to death! With this the baby's head is at a normal size and the stomach and torso is not growing at the same rate. My baby is not getting enough nutrients, don't know if its my fault or just something that is happening with the placenta and baby and all that stuff. But man.... do I feel like a bad mom already! I know this added stress is not good now either but its really hard to not worry when there could be something wrong. My Dr. is sending us to a specialist 3 hours away for a second opinion. If this Dr. feels the same way then it looks like the only treatment is bedrest. I know I know.... it could be worse. It can always be worse and I should be thankful for the blessing thus far, and I am, I really am but I would be lying if I said its not eating me up inside. I'm not sure if there is even anyone out there that reads this stupid blog... but if there is.. if there is someone out there that cares, say a prayer for my little one.